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Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Whats wrong with you?

Maybe something wrong with YOU!

D e e p

The cut reminds me that i'm alive.

S t o p

I can feel them staring at me. "Look at the freak". I can hear them whispering.

Dont sit next to me.

Dont look at me.

Dont talk to me.

Dont whisper behind me.

Dont point at me.

Dont smile at me.

J U S T  L E A V E  M E  A L O N E

D o u s e e i t ? D o u f e e l i t ?

Well, if it's not real

You can't hold it in your hands

You can't feel it with your heart

And I won't believe it

But if it's true

You can see it with your eyes

Even in the dark

And that's where I want to be

L e a v e m e a l o n e!

Leave me alone. Stop talking. Stop whispering. Stop looking. Leave me alone!

H o w d i d w e g e t h e r e?

How did we get here? 

when I use to know you so well 

How did we get here? 

Well, I think I know 

The truth is hiding in your eyes 

And it's hanging on your tongue 

Just boiling in my blood, 

But you think that I can't see 

What kind of man that you are 

If you're a man at all 

Well, I will figure this one out 

on my own 

on my own 

I KNOW PAIN

F a t e

No words to describe anything. No words at all.

L U C K

Dear god,

If you have anymore stones to throw at me, anymore punches or kicks, I beg you please, please dont do it. I cant take anything anymore.

God, have mercy on me please.

F r o z e n

I froze today. Sat in the exam hall and froze. Cant remember a thing. I cant remember what happened. I froze. My thoughts froze. Everything F R O Z E N

R a i n

I used to love the rain. I used to sit next to him and enjoy the rain. Loved kissing while looking at the rain.

Bt now, i hate the rain. I hate it coz everytime it rains it signifies how much tears i have shed this lifetime.
And how much more i will shed in this lifetime.

D i s a p p e a r i n g

I'm d i s a p p e a r i n g. If i go missing will anyone look for me?

I'm d i s a p p e a r i n g. 

T h e d a y

I'm having t h e d a y. Everything was closing up on me in class. Rode my bike while crying. Thank god my helmet had the face cover. Tears dwelling up my eyes. My emotions are erratic.

I dunno what the hell is happening to me?

T h a n k Y o u

Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been trying to be strong for too long

You may wonder why i openly write about depression. It is said that it helps to come out of it if you talk to someone or write about it. I cant talk to someone. NO ONE. But the least i can do is write.

I wish it was easier for me to face this. Wish people understood better what is depression. Wish someone could help me.

Been having a recurrent dream. I was standing on top of a building, dressed in white flow y dress, looking down and I jumped. A peaceful and serene feeling came after that. Maybe because everything ended. 

E V E R Y T H I N G ended.

I thought about it. Thinking about it. Sometimes i hear whispers of encouragement. Maybe lucifer's ready to have me. "Just end it. Why suffer? When there is a solution to everything. Why live such a L I F E?"

B r o k e n

Once broken considered SOLD

Who wants damaged item rite?

Everyone want everything to be perfect.

Prim n Proper.

Nobody is a sheet of white paper.

Everyone's tainted.

Everyone have a black dot.

But mine is not a dot. Its a splash of black ink.

Too obvious.

D.A.M.A.G.E.D

Every step is getting heavier. Every breathe hurts even more. Everything is black.

YOU DISAPPEARED

I AM DISAPPEARING

Again, who wants damaged item rite?

The clown that cheered the world but himself.

Biggest joke rite?

How long do u wanna be loved? Is forever enough?

                                    Through My Eyes                                              

Like tyrants assembled with tears

Trembling like a tomb

And singing like a statue

I am as empty as the ocean.

My blind eyes scream in silence

So this eternal echo will be known.

Given to the foils of time,

And shattered like plate glass-

You freeze within the fire.

Darkness now lives at daylight,

And shadows turn to the ghosts.

With all that shined is hollow

You imagine unconsciously.

And pretending to sleep you realize,

Nothing is what it seems.

I'm battling with DEPRESSION. Dont judge. Just listen. Plz listen. Dont ignore. I already feel as if i'm disappearing.

emotions

i'm not in any mood to say anything. Here's why:

1) I'm busy like hell. Seriously goddamn busy.
2) I'm stressed
3) Most of all i'm full of emotions right now. TOO MANY OF THEM. I had so many things happening to me. This what happens when u start your life on a wrong note. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

DAMN IT.