Catching the ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZssss......

Since i came back, i havent been sleeping well. My bedtime went haywire. Sometimes i sleep at 4am and wake up at 10am for breakfast and sleep back again. Horrible rite? I know! I shud do something about it. But i love watching TV! hehe. I know. He's the culprit. Well, he is charming and irresistable!=)

A good night sleep is really important for a productive and full day!

I shud adjust my sleeping habit. Soon la.

Till next time! Good night!=)

oh pleassssseeeeee!!!!!!

I WANT THIS!! REALLY REALLY WANT IT!

I need to convince my dad! He still swaying with his decision! Urgh! HOW HOW HOW HOW?????

Till next time! *fingers crossed hoping he'll agree!=s

LIFE! I'm living it!=)

I love to be home! Love it! I'm relaxed and enjoying my holidays.... Nice to be back. Away from all the drama in my life. Just relaxed.

Its so stressful to be there. Seriously! All the constant drama. Its like living in a drama series where the conflicts goes on and on. When it DOES resolves, there would be another conflict that come along soon after. Its like we all are actors in a TV drama and the director wants never ending drama to keep the viewers engaged. But who is the DIRECTOR? who are the VIEWERS?

I feel this constant feeling that my life has stopped. Like i'm not moving forward anymore. Feel like i'm not doing much with my life. I feel like i'm disappearing. I think i need some guidance. Or suggestions. Dunno la. Its 1 of those emotional days. MAYBE i need some ZEN or YOGA! Whatcha think?

ZEN! with the incense and all....

or YOGA! by the beach but there's no beaches nearby. NEXT!!

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Think i'll stick to something i know will definitely work

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SHOPPING! haha=)

Weird post. I know. I told ya. I am an emotional roller coaster! 

Till next time!

Emotional Hangover

I'm not sure why but i've been feeling abit emotional lately. Maybe its the hormones acting up. I dunno! Haih...


Its just i'm trying to control my emotions. Seriously! But everything thats happening around me seem to be ticking me of! I thought coming here i'll get a break from everything, but boy am i soooo wrong.


Whatever la. If people can just enjoy without feeling any guilt in hurting my feelings than why shud i bother thinking about theirs rite? URGH!


I HATE IT WHEN I'M EMOTIONAL. Its the hormones. I really need to learn to keep it cool. To be less involved with people. People hurt people.


God, give me strength to continue this journey of LIFE the best that i can. Keep me sane and strong throughout this journey. Guide me when i'm making choices and decisions. Thank you LORD.


Till next time!

When life gives u lemon!

Now, the post and the topic is not related. hehe. Just liked the saying.=)

Went for a jog in the morning. It was awesome. At last i felt some kind of movement in my muscles! I don wanna gain too much weight or loose my stamina, You see, there's futsal tournament in august that i'm looking forward 2. Its in Bandung and i cant wait to go!!!! I wanna keep my body active so that i wont need much workout later. Well, crossing my fingers that i will continue!

I need complete futsal kit! Was planning to go to Nike in Pavillion to get it. I wanna own a Nike. I mean Adidas is cool and all but i always wanted a Nike.

I like the blue 1. But the green looks good as well. We'll see how.

Definitely buying a glove. Oh ya! I'm the goal keeper and the captain as well!=) So thought of getting a glove and a captain band! hehe. Show off. I know. But i like those band since watching world cup!

This gloves are called 'Nike Spyne' Perfect name for it! I shud check it out.

Actually i have alot of things running through my mind right now but no words to describe it yet. Think its still in draft. once i'm able to figure out my own thoughts i'll spill it here.
Till next time!

Speaking ur M.I.N.D

Okay. I feel i was nice enough to say to her to go ahead on da vacation without me. But i dont think i can hear all the stories and see the pictures. I dont want to. I mean i'm not that feeling-less k? I'm still sad about it but i'm being graceful and matured. Thats all. I really don wanna hear about it. But how do i say it without sounding like an ass? You see if its some1 that really truly knows me will get what i'm saying. But these are the people i just knew few years ago! As much as i hope, i'm not that understood. UNFORTUNATELY!

Haish. I dun wanna hurt miss A. Seriously. But i dun wanna hurt myself. =(

Well, i just hope that my words wont fail me when i see her!

Till later!

My Best Friend!

Met my love kalai today. She is my best friend and the only person that knows me in and out. Everytime i come back for holidays, I HAVE TO MEET HER! She's my family. My sister.

My bestie! Love u kalai!

We went to midvalley, sat in starbucks and talked for hours!! It was soooooo nice talking to her. We have nothing to hide. So, just imagining talking to someone with your soul! Best feeling ever. I know one thing, when i return back to Malaysia, the person that i want to be there for me is definitely Kalai! Like how Meredith is Christina's person, Kalai is my person. 

That's all for today. Dont worry, i'll try to improve my blogging soon. Its just hard to find privacy for now. So, i have to blog in a hurry.

Till next time!

PARTY IN THE HOUSE!

I attended an elite birthday party yesterday. Was super cool. I love parties! Seriously! I love the atmosphere. The loud music. Everything. It wasnt a huge party, but it was fun. Had a vodka cranberry which was super tasty! I shud do that instead of srewdriver.

Looks yummy rite? It WAS yummy!

Well, there was something else about the party. I actually got the "double head turn"! U know, when the guys look and look again. It was flattering when that happened! Like seriously a boost to my confident. I had looks from little boys as well. hehe=). It was cool, for once i was the 1 getting the double head turns.

Miss P invited me to Singapore. My parents were okay with it but there was transportation problem. So, i'm not going. I actually was looking forward for it. BUT..... haish! Its ok la. Singapore will always be there rite?

Till next time!

DRIVING!

I love driving. I just simply love driving. I cant really explain why.

I had alot of people asking how can you love driving in KL. more like kayhell!

Well, i love KL. I love the city very much. CITY OF LIGHTS!

So, its natural for me to love driving around here. There's a serene feeling driving on a highway late at night. Its peaceful and helps me to think. Well, even if i'm stuck in jam in the middle of the day, i rarely get stressed. Unless i need to be somewhere fast.

When i return to Indonesia I do miss drivng alot. I do wish i can drive there bt its simply not practical. I'm more interested in getting a scooter. U know, the cute type with the helmet that has eyes painted on it. Like the one in the movie YES MAN.

Something like that. Cute rite? hehe=)

Lets just hope its possible. I have alot of convincing to do.

Till next time!

Black Sheep

After thinking carefully i messaged A and told her to go ahead wth her plans to Bali. It hurts to be left behind coz it was supposed to be our plan. Our holiday. But if i tell her not to go than i'm being selfish rite? Making decisions that not necessarily to our advantage is part of growing up rite?

Than why do i feel so crappy? I'm upset. Sad that i dont belong anymore. Sad that i'm the black sheep. But than again, maybe i never belonged anyway. Oh! I thought that , as i'm getting older i'll be less emotional. Less dramatic.

Dear, i wanna follow as well. I wish you guys can wait for me as well. As much i try to keep a straight face, i do get jealous as well. Than again i know u care about my feelings. Jst the rest dont. Haih! This feeling sucks!

I want to be there! Where am i supposed to find people to go to Bali with me? Any takers?

routine....

Watching my mom cooking in the kitchen is my favorite thing in the world. With my kitten on her feet asking for food she always manage to move around the kitchen exquisitely. Right now, she's talking to my kitten, telling her to wait till she finishes her cooking. Hehe. Something i always miss when i'm in Indonesia. My mom is my life. The only reason that keeps me going no matter what.

I like sitting at home doing nothing. Practically nothing. Its boring at time but time does move more quickly here than in Malang. Its been 5 days since i came back. I still havent unpacked though. Hehe=).

Well this is a hopeless entry anyway. Just a random thought in my head!

blogging!

So, i decided to blog. Just like that. I decided to blog. Dunno why.

I'm in Holidays in MALAYSIA now! woohooo! Love it! Just came back from running some errands.

1. Sent my brother to work
2. Stopped by the bank to deal with money stuffs.
3. Went to brickfields to do eyebrow threading.
3. Went to Times Square to buy modem from MAXIS!
4. Bought Sim card. Got a permanent no!!! yay!

Wanted to shop abit bt decided to head back home to try out the broadband.
This is what my broadband looks like. Cool rite? Jst plug in n i'm connected!

Maybe later i'll update more with photos k? Since i suddenly decided to blog, no pictures! Boohooo...=(

Till next time!