D i s a p p e a r i n g

I'm d i s a p p e a r i n g. If i go missing will anyone look for me?

I'm d i s a p p e a r i n g. 

T h e d a y

I'm having t h e d a y. Everything was closing up on me in class. Rode my bike while crying. Thank god my helmet had the face cover. Tears dwelling up my eyes. My emotions are erratic.

I dunno what the hell is happening to me?

T h a n k Y o u

Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been trying to be strong for too long

You may wonder why i openly write about depression. It is said that it helps to come out of it if you talk to someone or write about it. I cant talk to someone. NO ONE. But the least i can do is write.

I wish it was easier for me to face this. Wish people understood better what is depression. Wish someone could help me.

Been having a recurrent dream. I was standing on top of a building, dressed in white flow y dress, looking down and I jumped. A peaceful and serene feeling came after that. Maybe because everything ended. 

E V E R Y T H I N G ended.

I thought about it. Thinking about it. Sometimes i hear whispers of encouragement. Maybe lucifer's ready to have me. "Just end it. Why suffer? When there is a solution to everything. Why live such a L I F E?"

B r o k e n

Once broken considered SOLD

Who wants damaged item rite?

Everyone want everything to be perfect.

Prim n Proper.

Nobody is a sheet of white paper.

Everyone's tainted.

Everyone have a black dot.

But mine is not a dot. Its a splash of black ink.

Too obvious.

D.A.M.A.G.E.D

Every step is getting heavier. Every breathe hurts even more. Everything is black.

YOU DISAPPEARED

I AM DISAPPEARING

Again, who wants damaged item rite?

The clown that cheered the world but himself.

Biggest joke rite?

How long do u wanna be loved? Is forever enough?

                                    Through My Eyes                                              

Like tyrants assembled with tears

Trembling like a tomb

And singing like a statue

I am as empty as the ocean.

My blind eyes scream in silence

So this eternal echo will be known.

Given to the foils of time,

And shattered like plate glass-

You freeze within the fire.

Darkness now lives at daylight,

And shadows turn to the ghosts.

With all that shined is hollow

You imagine unconsciously.

And pretending to sleep you realize,

Nothing is what it seems.

I'm battling with DEPRESSION. Dont judge. Just listen. Plz listen. Dont ignore. I already feel as if i'm disappearing.

emotions

i'm not in any mood to say anything. Here's why:

1) I'm busy like hell. Seriously goddamn busy.
2) I'm stressed
3) Most of all i'm full of emotions right now. TOO MANY OF THEM. I had so many things happening to me. This what happens when u start your life on a wrong note. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

DAMN IT.